DAMN !!!

AHYIN AHKAU AHMAD, LISTEN HERE...

I HATE YOU THE REST OF MY LIFE!

AND I MEAN IT!

my special buddies (:

DAMN GURLZ....

MY SUPER DUPER GALZ....

EXCEPT....

THE GURL IN PINK SHIRT!!!!

 

u shud listen to this ayin (:

Tear up the photographs
But yesterday won't let go
Every day ever day every minute
Here comes the emptiness
Just can't leave lonely alone
Every day every day ... hey hey
This second chancin's really getting me down
You givin' takin' everything I dreamed about
It's time you let me know, let me know just let go

[Chorus]
All I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby 'cause all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

I'd rather walk alone
Don't wanna chase you around
Every day every day every minute
I'd fall a thousand times
'fore I let you drag me down
Every day every day ... hey hey
Your new beginning was a perfect ending
But I keep feeling we've already been here before
It's time you let me know let me know just let go

[Chorus]

Tell me with so many out there why I always turn to you
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it's so easy to see
That the blame is on me

[Chorus]

true true true

ayin, dun leave me..
i didnt ant this to b happen..
i luff u ayin...
dun leave me...
did u feel sorry fer me huh??
did u think its the better uay to solve all this fucking things??
hey come on syg,
des a lot of uay dat ue can deal uith...
but the point nou is..
i dont uant u to leave!
STAY HERE UITH ME DEAR!!!
Im still ur uife rite???

hear me!
im uaiting!

to ayin, my husband...

I didn't mean to break your heart

I didn't mean to do you wrong
I didn't mean to lie to you
I didn't mean to, I didn't mean to
I didn't mean to sex off on you
I didn't mean to make you cry
I didn't mean to cheat on you
So forgive me for all that I've done
I didn't mean to take for granted
That you would always be right here
I know you heard me say I'm sorry
So many times
But I admit that I was wrong
For leaving you all alone
But now I finally realize
Cuz I see the pain in your eyes
Dear i hope that you stil love me
I'm trying to let you know I've changed
imagine life without you
I'd go insane
I wanna make it up to you
By giving all my love to you
Cuz now I finally understand
Dear i swear to you I've changed
Things won't be the same no more
For as long as I live
I'll keep it real with you girl
Cross my heart and hope to die
My hurtin' eyes been crying for weeks
Put me in the corner
Put me in time-out
Mistakes I've made before
I wouldn't make no more, girl
So cus me out
Scream at the top of your lungs if you want to
Just don't leave me, forgive me
Baby, I know I made alot of mistakes in the past
But right now I'm trying to be the best that I can be
And I want us to be the best that we can be
So what I'm asking you to do for me right now is
To try to forgive me, I'm sorry
Forgive me, forgive me, oh
I'm down on my knees, begging you please
So forgive me for all that I've done
What I'm saying is that
We've got too much to live for
We've got too much together, baby
Just don't let it all end
Oh baby,
I wish I could let you know
Just how sorry I am
I know I hurt you
I don't ever want to hurt you again
Cuz when I hurt you, it hurts me too
I'm sorry
Think about it
Please, find it in your heart to forgive me
I'll never do it again, I promise, baby
I love you too much
How I love what we have together
Cuz in my mind, one and one makes one, it don't make two
Don't you know I need you
Oh I love you
ayin...

never hurt again! ( is it true?)

sumtimes... i realy dont want to speak my mind.. cuz i really dun wanna tell u how i am digging u so n i cant let go.. but it hurts me to my soul.. hell yeah! really hurt.... ):
to tell u every little things on my mind, i just cant let u noe so i hide it inside.. all my feelings 4 u i cant let it go to ur head.. haha! kinda funny...  i am MEAN TO U SUMTIME..  but i cant get u off my mind lah!
cant u see it tru my eyes how much i wanna hold u syg?? give u all my luff.....
but..............
i've been there ( in hard situation ) n i've done dat.. n i tell myself not to get hurt again.. oh plz.. never again sheera,, never!
has love lost its meaning??? ( maybe.. ) am i meant not to feel it? duno lahh... is it me to blam huh????
gosh! damn it lah.... i really need to change for what she wanted! yess, i need to! n i noe... i dont wanna be in this pattern of life! its opposite my aim.. why i gotta mess it up? did i mess it up?? yeahh.. maybe.. bfore this...... hurmm. its like a CURSE  u noe...
oh god, why do i have to suffer for all this kind of things? i need to b strong cuz theres a deep love to her inside my heart... i've given her everything... still it aint happening.. in fact, im sick of it.. what does love want from me? its asking too much (inside my mind)
 AM I A SUCKER FOR A SUFFER FOR LOVE???
damn not! damn yess!
my dear love, listen what im goin to speech......
i wanna b happy n laughing just like the people that i see up arround me... so im gonna make the differences with all your giving chances... i keep on trying but i duno how it works for u.. des no instruction so im getting hurt.. over n over n over n over againn...

PROBLEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ape mslh dye ekh..?
aku shabis daye nak jd tbaik utk dy...
ngt aku ape???
hurmm, pape je lahh awak..
as i said b4, i syg at u..
so wateva happen pon my love towards u xkn brubh...
lntak u lahh na pk peww..
ermm, td dy tgking aku!
wahh!
aku ngan ngah period nihh..
mang at hal arhh en...
xpe, aku sbr....
aku still ade sbr..
isteri ne bole tggi sore t suami en..
pendam je slame mampu...
ok lah, xde mood lah my dear blog...

lokasi : sarah maju
time : 1.15am

(thnx ahh sarah sbb bg aku on9 nk luahkan psaan... n thanx gak ka iq sbb bg pnjam lappy )

the nicest things i ever had..

All I know is that you're so nice,
You're the nicest thing I've seen.

I wish that we could give it a go,
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favourite girl,
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in theworld.
I wish I was your favourite smile,
I wish the way that I dressed was your favouritekind of style.

I wish you couldn't figure me out,
But you always wanna know what I was about.
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset,
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face whenwe first met.

I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that youloved secretly,
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else couldsee.
Basically, I wish that you loved me,
I wish that you needed me,
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars,actually I meant three.

I wish that without me your heart would break,
I wish that without me you'd be spending the restof your nights awake.
I wish that without me you couldn't eat,

I wish I was the last thing on your mind beforeyou went to sleep.

when she love me....

when sumbody love me, everything was beautiful..every moment we spent together lives within my heart.. when she was sad, i was there to dry her tears.. and when she was happy, so was i... WHEN SHE LOVED ME.. through the summer and the fall, we had each other and thats was all.. just she and i together like it was meant to be.. when she was lonely, i was there to comfort her..and i knew that she loved me.. so the month went by i stay the same.. still i waited for the day when she say "i will always love you"... lonely and forgotten, never thought she had look my way.. she smiled at me n held me.. just like she used to do when she loved me.. how lucky i am to be with her....

sincerely. sheera..

cinta aku same dier.....

huh, mcm ner nak story eyh...
oke lah.. from luaran mmg aku nmpak sgt hepi... (if nmpak lahh)
but inside.. hurmm.. (should i tell u??)
lemme keep it oke..
yes, i do love her... ( ----> AhYiNAHkAuAhMaD )
she cheered my life...
but when sumting goes wrong inside us.... ( no need to explain further )
it makes my world empty n dark...
its not what i want!
i dont like it!
she want me to b sum1 strong, independant, non-childish person....
imma be dat type of person...
sumtimes, its kinda weird when she said my tears messed her up.....
but if only i could stop it....
it simply comes down my face..
then how???
plz undestnd me dear.....
i just wanna be what i really are...
n i dont like u talking bout my past!

my past was a great NIGHTMARE fer me sygg...

but u're NOT!
plz3....
i beg you...
dont u ever ask me bout my past again....
i  noe its painful for u to hear n noe evrything..
so da best way is...
STOP N DONT ask for it...
i syg u...
i dun wanna hurt u...
sorry dear. i realy need to express this......

sincerely, sheera ( ur wife )